It's too hot.

I'm aware that I live in a rather cold place. I'm aware that I've experienced much more heat and humidity than what I'm currently experiencing but right now, that doesn't matter. It's too hot and Hank Green's song of that nature is running over and over in my head.

But yes, Dad's birthday went really well yesterday. And by really well I mean that I ate waaay too much food and chatted with my relatives. It was nice. I'm not sure how Dad is feeling about being 50. In some ways I think he's still a little bit in denial but that's what I love about him, he's never really going to grow up. I wouldn't have it any other way.

I also finally unpacked the end of my suitcase today. It was sad. I disliked taking all my memories out of it and it put such a feeling of ending on my whole American experience that I really detested doing it. Although I suppose in a way it makes me more determined to go back. Come next summer I plan to leave Ireland and go on a bit of an adventure to America and then stay there for college the next year. It's a plan I've had for quite a while now and assuming I manage to save the money and get the grades, I can see it happening.

It's strange to think of me having adventures. When I was younger, I was very shy, very inward. I was sick for a few years and I think that made me a quieter person simply through lack of energy. But ever since I got involved with internet fandoms such as Nerdfighteria and Tumblr not to mention the immeasurable Potterheads floating around the interwebz, I have managed to become a little more of the person I've wanted to be. I'm louder, I write music and people listen to it, I've tried fanfic (and pretty much failed but I tried), I've made amazing friends and I made my way alone across the Atlantic to meet some of the best people in the world and found the first place outside of my bedroom where I could be completely myself. That is something I can never explain.

Why do I end up getting so muchy in these posts? Seriously, I am not a mushy person, I promise. It's just that the internet makes me thankful and is full of such awesome people that I have to express my love to as many of you as I can. In the spirit of Esther, I love you.

Until tomorrow (when I will be in LONDON),

Love,

Shauna

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